Come to the conclusion that its not worth my time and lack of effort to bother with women at this point in my life... I don't want to get married and I don't want kids.  So why bother.  I'm enjoying the single life and catching up on what I've missed over the past year.

I simply laugh when a person HAS to be with someone.  Makes you look kinda needy.  Something I don't need.

Also have noticed I find different things on different girls attractive.  Which is nice cause I feel that eliminates the whole "type" nonsense.

Also learned that when I am attracted to a girl, I turn into a total spas.  I get all shy, can't find the words to strike up a conversation, I try to impress them with really stupid shit...

When I'm not attracted to a girl, I turn in to a dick.  My inner douche bag comes out and is swinging for the fences.

Only one maybe two girls have broken me of the words above but I doubt they will ever know

When life throws you lemons you throw them back

The point of this blog has nothing to do with lemons or lemonade.

I have reached what I feel is a fork in the road of life.  Each and every decision we make has one of two outcomes.  The safe route where you know the answer and what lies ahead or the road that could lead you to enternal happiness or something truly horrible.

The point that I have reached is with furthering my education.  If I continental the route I am going, I feel I will become a boring, typical American that hates their job.  Or stuck behind a desk in some large office cubicle or cramped office.  Forced day in and day out in a cheesy suit for the rest of my days.  If I take the other road, I truly have no clue where life may take me.  Could be good, could be bad, could be a dream come true.

I am scared of what I feel is a necessary decision that I need to make in a short period of time. 

I just don't want to let people down.  I don't want to let myself down.  I especially don't want to let my father down which I feel like I do every term if I dontgofull time old end up dropping a class.

Hoping I find the answer I'm looking for soon